Life can be a bit of a struggle sometimes, about how we see ourselves against how we see ourselves through others. I consider this a tempering factor mostly, from the idea that I am inherently biased towards myself. What I'd like to look at and talk about briefly though is understanding yourself complexly and even non-negative social assignments can be... troubling.
I have always found EVERYTHING to be fascinating. They way the world is, and expresses itself, it's just... wow. I have also always enjoyed learning new things, and took to science and other academics quite naturally. This soon became a dominant facet of how I saw myself, and how I saw myself through others. I didn't take art classes because I wasn't artsy. I didn't take choir or try out for a play because I was socially awkward and anxious. Through out growing up, it seemed a natural assumption that I would grow up to go to college and become a scientist, or a computer engineer, or doctor, or bartender... wait, what?!
Yeah. It always seemed like my oddball dream, but since I was even 11 or 12, I remember wanting to be a bartender. Which has always seemed kinda odd, since I've thought for most of my life that I'm not a people person. When I finally started to look at myself more complexly, sometime shortly after graduating high school, I found many new interests I didn't expect myself to have. I love fashion design, I draw and doodle a lot, I spend a lot of time singing to myself(whether I'm alone or not), and I'm not actually a total awkward doof.
Don't be afraid to explore yourself, you'll probably be surprised how complex you are.
Trot On Everypony,
Alturiigo
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